Tuesday, March 22, 2011

THe big 24............

So at the beginning of the month I turned 24, I seriously have never wanted to turn older than 21:(
24 isn't old by any means, and in all reality you are only as old as you feel, and I don't feel old most days anyways!

Sitting here thinking about it the last 6 years have flown by and I have been at the top, hit rock bottom and climbed back out, truly life has been amazing to me in retrospect.Tough sometimes but amazing. Everyone goes through hard times, every one makes mistakes, but then again they are what teach us and show us how to grow.
In my case my mistakes have taught me whats important, whats important to me to my journey through this life. It taught me who is important, who i need and want with me in this life. my husband and kids are a few of the people ( the most important ones) my mom and dad, my brothers and sisters, I know who my real friends are, as high school as that sounds, life is nothing without friends that you can trust, and cry to and tell all your problems too! My dad use to tell me that you can count the number of true friends you have on one hand, and most the time you won't fill up one hand. I never understood that until I was older and he's right, and I am SO blessed to count my 4 siblings as those "true friends" , we fight, we argue, and we ALL have different opinions on EVERYTHING,but we all bring something amazing to the table.

I couldn't imagine living farther than an hr from any of them. Sadly come May my favorite sissy will be following Gods plan for her and her  husband and my sure to be beautiful baby neice or nephew and will be moving to wyoming!!!!!!!!!!!!! yep tears come to my eyes just thinking about it! GReat now Im balling my eyes out..........just a sec..........ok im back!

my littlest brother will be shipped off to boot camp in may too, he enlist last yr and has to wait to walk across the stage for gradutation to head out on his adventure, oh great here we go again, no im fine!!!!!!! my other brother is moving up to my parents property up north, my other brother( sadly yes I grew up with 3 brothers and only one sister) got married dec of 2010 so he's a busy bee:)
my point in this post is that, last year was amazing, and I hope things get better, I know there is still a ton I need to work on like getting my feelings hurt easily, and I don't hold a grudge so much as I hold on to the hurt. I am insecure, I constently worry about hurting peoples feelings or upsetting them, while I always try to NEVEr purposely hurt someones feeling, I need to speak up, and let them know I have an opinion in the nicest way possible. I realize that I can be around people that I don't agree with.
My husband always say I let people walk all over me( he says it in the nicest way possible) and I agree with him I do it goes back to the above I have an opinion and I have a choice, def a need to work on!
 i want to remember to live in the moment at hand, not constently be worried or thinking about the future,about bills and chores, those things have there place in my life for sure, but they don't need to steal my time with my family and my friends. People say it all the time to live in the moment, but its harder than you think! Another big need to work on!
2011 is going to be an amazing year and next yr I hope i can say I have made a huge step in acomplishing all these!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

when life becomes over-bearing...

Lately my life, my days have become stressful, and honestly over bearing....The laundry is never done, the kitchen floor rarely stays clean, and my livingroom lets just not go there! I love organization, and cleanliness but my goodness you couldn't tell by the state of my house!
when this happens I forget to be thankful for the imporant things, like my livingroom floors is a mess because it's ussually covered in toys because I have four amazing kids that make my world go round! my kitchen is a mess because we have food to eat and love to cook.
There is laundry because we have plenty of clothes, our floors are still not quite finished because we are healthy and happy and love to be outside, going to the park, cleaning our front yard, going for rides in the jeep, and on our dirtbikes. WE ARE BLESSED..

So when my love seat  looks like this
I need to consider myself BLESSED, not stressed:)

Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the Lord guards the city, the guard keeps watch in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives sleep to his beloved. (Psalm 127:1-2)

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

daddy daughter dance 2011

Again this year Lee got to attend the father daughter dance with little miss Ariel, they went last year and hailee tagged along. This year she wanted to stay with momma and shop at target!! woohoo no little boys with us, fun suff!
We got to Ariels moms house to pick Ariel up and boom she changes her mind!!!!! Apparently shopping with mom wasn't nearly as much fun as going to a dance with sissy and daddy!
Since when!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well thankfully Nicki had a dress on hand that fit Hailee, and Hailee got to take home( Thanks N) and mom got dropped off at target to shop and look around kid free!
I have to admit at first I was bummed my little mini me ditched me, but seriously I forgot what it was like to shop by myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was fun!
Anyways I don't have many pictures maybe two that turned out but I thought I would share!

ahem..Ariel did you really need to look at us, that would have been a super cute picture I could have bugged your mom till I got! jeeze girl !!!!!!!!! Anyways enjoy!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I choose...........

Today was one of those days, ya know the kind that when you wake up and you really an to go back to bed, you realize an hr into the day stay in bed was your best bet!

This afternoon I recieved a text from the hubs about a particular matter, it doesn't really matter what it was about, thats not the point, but I reacted not so great to it, and honestly was ready to smack someone! I know not nice, and not really how I should have reacted!
About an hour went by and I finally stopped worry and left it to the man up above.
See one of my biggest problems is I forget there is someone bigger,and way cooler than me pulling the strings, he knows what he's doing, and it's not my place to "fix" everything. So after a little while spent with him I let it go and let God.
In a moment of realization, I remembered a book my sister had got me for christmas last year, I don't remember the name of the book and pretty sure its packed away because I need a new bookshelf! however I do remember the poem in the front!

                                                                 I Choose

It's quiet. It's early. My coffee is hot. The sky is still black. The world is still asleep. The day is coming.
In a few moments the day will arrive. It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun. The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day. The calm of the solitude will be replaced by the pounding pace of the human race. The refuge of the early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met.
For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day's demands. It is now that I must make a choice. Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose. And so...

No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love. Today I will love God and what God loves.


I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical...the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.


I will live forgiven. I will forgive so that I may live.


I will overlook the inconveniences of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so. Rather than complaining that the wait is too long, I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.


I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.


I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I will accuse. I choose goodness.


Today I will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My associates will not question my word. My wife will not question my love. And my children will never fear that their father will not come home.


Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If I raise my voice, may it be only in praise. If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.


I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit will soar. I refuse to let what will rot rule the eternal. I choose self-control. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by Christ.


To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek God's face. And then when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.

I know that sometimes it's nearly impossible to hand things over, but like Audrey Hepburn said-nothing is impossible, the word itself says I'm possible!
R :)

Monday, March 7, 2011


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